MRI

I had my first (and hopefully last) MRI yesterday to find out what the problem is with my spine. When I was 18, I injured my back doing something very simple - in fact, most of us do this once a week but somehow I injured my back. I've had a problem with my back every few months since then but nothing major - until recently. For the last two months I've hardly nbeen able to walk. It was so painful just getting out of bed and taking any sort of step resulted in agony. Sometimes I could hardly even stand. It's sort of come good now, it's still painful getting out of bed but I can walk better now and I've even left the house a few times, though it's extra painful the next day. At least I'm out of the house, even if I have to pay for it the next day.

Since I hadn't had an MRI before, I didn't know what was going to happen but just thought they'd put me in the machine a little way, take the picture and then I'd be free to go. Then I was told it would take about 30 minutes. Not so bad, I thought. Yeah, but then I got in there and they put my entire body into the machine. I don't mean just a little way into the machine, either. It was a long way. And it was a confined space. I felt like I'd been shoved into this tiny tunnel. Well, that was when I discovered I had a fear of confined spaces. I guess it was not the place to figure that one out. I almost told them to get me out of there, I wouldn't go through with it but I managed to hold out. They told me to hold still. Yeah right!!! I was starting to panic so much that my breathing increased. In the end, I closed my eyes and kept telling myself it would be over soon enough. It seemed to drag on though and I found myself asking the Goddess to send me some extra strength and help me through it.

Luckily, it didn't take 30 minutes at all. It was over in about 15 minutes. I was so thankful for that. I'll never agree to have another one. Honeslty, it felt like I was trapped in a coffin. oh well, it's done now and it was an experience, I guess. Now I just need to go back to the doctor next week to find out the results. I'm already over all these appointments -it's really no fun at all.
perhaps when it's all over I can finally make that trip to Mexico that I've been planning for 2 years.

Arturo Meza

Arturo Meza

Limericks

Everyone enjoys a good limerick, right?

Introducing ... Wookie

This is our other new puppy. His name is Wookie and he's currently 8 weeks old. He's named Wookie because he supposedly looks like Chewbacca. lol. Lily is his little sister.

I am the nightmare waking you up

I put together a playlist of my fave HIM songs. Since I've been a bit depressed, I've gone back to listening to HIM. Funny how that always makes me feel better.

Waji

Waji was excited to meet Lily. He even had something to say.

HOME

This was a poem I wrote when I first started studying at uni. I suck at poetry but I had to write a sonnet for one of my classes so I made an attempt and this was the end result. Like I said, I suck at poetry. It turned out reasonable though - I think. So yeah, where it says ten years since my removal, it's now 15. In the future, I'll stick to novels.

HOME

The red dust of Yamatji Country
Stirs, by a car along the road
In this, my silent land of ancestry
Where I belong, my secure abode
Ten years it's been since my removal
Not my choice, father's choosing
City we went, without my approval
I'll always cherish my early raising
Taught of my people, my tradition
A deadly purification of my soul
Learn respect for my elders, an' listen
Till I go back, I won't feel whole
For home, my heart will ever yearn
And when I die, there I shall return.

HIM - Right Here in my Arms

One of my favourite HIM performances.



I just love Mikko and I'm so glad their publicist introduced me to their music.

Introducing ... Lily

This is our new puppy. Her name is Lily and she's currently 7 weeks old.